A look back at 2015

If I had to describe 2015 in a few words, I would say it was a mixed bag. I had some very happy days and very excited days, but I had very somber days, and more recently incredibly sad days too.

The first months were the ones I blogged most, but it was also the period I found it hardest mentally. I barely left the house – and if I did, never on my own. It got better when I started challenging myself with the help of internet resources about dealing with anxiety. I managed to accomplish my most important goal for the year – to get a job. It was the only one I did manage, but I’m still really proud and happy about it. I got happier and healthier after that and I have to say that over all, the year wasn’t all that bad. It was however also sadly, and most notably for me, the year that we did not only celebrate our cat’s first birthday, but also the year we had to say goodbye to her.

It was near the end of November that she got killed by a car. Even though she had crossed the road we live by fine for a few months already, that one day was her very unlucky day. My neighbour came and told me the bad news, telling me she so wished it wasn’t ours. But I knew the moment she said white cat it was unlikely to be someone else’s. We owned the only white cat in the area. Her little body was still warm when I found her, but looking at her and feeling her she had very clearly passed away already. I lay her by her favourite tree before burying her together with my husband later that day. We barely got over the first shock of her not being there anymore when three weeks after we buried her she got dug up by foxes or badgers. We had to find another place for her little body and that hurt an awful lot – not having her with us anymore a second time over. I am very glad we have a lot of pictures and a few videos of her though. We miss her still and I think we always will. She truly was our little sweetheart.

Here’s to a happier 2016 x


A long overdue blog

It’s been a while since I’ve taken the time to write things down about what’s been going on in my life. That has a lot to do with the fact that I don’t think all that much happened. I have enjoyed church and its related activities a lot and I’ve started going out a lot more regularly with my local friends. That was something I really needed. Not that I wasn’t happy before, but it does make a difference none the less. 

At the end of May I joined in for the celebration of my older sister’s boy’s first birthday. Here is a very proud auntie. The weekend after that we went to Birmingham Expo spending more time playing pathfinder than actually looking around the exhibit. 

June saw some new things starting like some volunteering at local charities and the start of my very own Pathfinder campaign. I mean, I didn’t write it, I’m just running it. But it’s really exciting for me. We also had another game of D&D up in the Midlands.

In July we went to PaisoCon – lots of fun – and the week after that me and my father-in-law painted and varnished the downstairs. At the end of July I finally got another job interview and I was over the moon when I got a job offer. My acceptance letter will be in the post today. My younger sister’s hen party last weekend felt like the perfect celebration. It was only the second ever time I went to a spa. We all had a great time.

I told you it wasn’t that much for the amount of time that has lapsed. See you later!

The one where I wanted to have a job by now

My friend told me off for being impatient when I told him about this. “But it’s been at least 5 months!” I said in a very exasperate kind of way. He replied with a reminder that it took him a year and a half to get the job he’s in now. I was very annoyed about that because I don’t want to wait that long. But then again, neither did he. The unanswered letters do get to me. If I had the courage I’d call those companies up and say “Come on! Hire me already! You don’t know what you’re missing” But I’m not really that kind of person. I do keep looking and applying, because that’s the only to get a job if you’re not planning to start your own company. Admitedly, the thought has crossed my mind because I’m tired of being unemployed. I wouldn’t have a clue how/what/etc. One of the hurdles is my lack of experience. I’m 29 and have only ever been a student (and took a bloody long time to get a bachelor’s degree and a masters diploma). Sure I have done interships, volunteering and all that, but I don’t know how much that counts. It doesn’t help either that I still don’t really know what I want to be doing. Also, according to my hubby I underestimate what I’m able to do as a job. The overriding emotion about this subject tends to be grrrr! I just have to keep at it I guess. I’m bound to get a positive response sometime.

My life in pictures #6

Since my friends’ visits, me and Mike went to Contraption Con, had a lovely bank holiday Monday and had his parents over the next weekend. We had a good time and me and my father-in-law worked in the garden planting some nice flowers and strawberry plants. The next week I finished the scarf I was knitting ages ago but left at a previous convention. One of the guys was nice enough to return it to me at Contraption. This is the finished scarf (more stuff on Ravelry: http://www.ravelry.com/projects/evavw (login required)) 

And this is the finished scarf around Navi’s neck. She was pretty confused: 

That’s all for now. Next time I do this I’ll make sure there are more pictures. May take a while though because I don’t take my camera with me nearly enough.

[edited April 2016]

Long overdue friends visit

I’m not really sure how to start this one. I’m on the train again, and I’m absolutely shattered. This last week was pretty busy, but great fun at the same time. The memories are already all jumbled up in my head. I did a lot of watching, talking and listening. I saw friends I haven’t seen properly in at least a year, if not two, so there was a lot of catching up to do. It’s curious how quick you forget or how time seems to be warped when you see so many people in such a short space of time. It’s as if no time at all has passed and at the same time it feels like this week was at least a month. The irregular sleeping times this week can’t have helped I’m sure.

It’s Monday now, I started this on Friday. I feel there’s only one thing to add. It was great and I’ll do it again, hopefully with not as much time in between as last time.

If we were having coffee #6

If we were having coffee, I’d try one for a change. Not a proper one though. I occasionally like what they call “wrong coffee” where I come from. It’s basically milk with a splash of coffee. I’d tell you I’ve needed my share of cafeine lately. After spending Easter with family we decided to babysit Mike’s youngest nephew and niece for a couple of days. And despite them not being as early risers as they used to be – being up after 6 o’clock was rare – we still slept a lot less than we’re used to, especially in the holidays.

I’d tell you that after they left we had rather a lot of sleep, but not for the reasons you might think, which I assume is catching up on some. We had in fact caught the flu and although mine wasn’t too bad, Mike spent most of the time in bed until he slept it off (which lasted nearly two weeks in total). That meant I was on cat duty. I’m returning him the favour now, being on my way to visit my family in Belgium for a week.

If we were having coffee I would tell you how, when we went to watch “Home” with our nephew and niece we laughed out loud. It is really a film for everyone. And how excited I am about Age of Ultron. I only watched it yesterday, IMAX and 3D off course. It was so awesome I want to see it again as soon as possible. No spoilers, even though I’m itching to tell you so much more than just how great this film is.

Lastly I’d tell you me and my hubby went to see a concert for the first time in too long. It was really good, despite it being far too hot in the venue for my taste. They’re called Public Service Broadcasting and they’re a really cool band. You should definitely check them out sometime. That’s all for now. I hope you’re all having a great start of the week. See you next time!

Happy birthday Navi!

It was our kitty’s first birthday yesterday, not that she herself realised this in any fashion. It was a glorious day so we decided to get her some new stuff from the pet store so she could try it out outside. We also got her things we had meant to buy her anyway like a catflap and some care products. But the things I was keen to test out were the new toy – a bird on a cord attached to a wooden rod – and a harness. She loves one of the cats about two miles away, but can seemingly only get there when we bring her there, which I believe we did once or twice in her cat basket. She however really does not like that basket. And it’s hard to let her walk around there because there is no control over where she goes. Anyway, I amused her with the new toy and she was having a lot of fun. The fun stopped abruptly when she yanked the toy out of my hand and got tangled. Her reaction was pretty dramatic. She raced across the garden with a look as if she was being chased by her worst enemy and didn’t stop until (luckily less than a minute) the cord was no longer attached to her. She didn’t like the toy anymore after that. Then I decided to try out the harness. I was relieved she didn’t dislike it more than one would expect and hopefully in a couple of months we’ll be able to go for a walk. This morning she’s being entertained by the fellow fixing our window. Aparently his movements fascinate her so she keeps staring at him. I don’t think she’ll be doing much else for the rest day.